the walls

last night after the basement i went out to eat with one of my new friends. the Lord has definitely has His will already in our friendship. we desire the same things and our vision for our church is pretty much the same. last night we talked about the walls we have had up that have mainly been up towards boys in general. both of our parents have been divorced and she has seen how a marriage can fail more than once. i told her not only have i put up walls towards guys but towards people in general. it's hard to let your heart out when it's been hurt multiple times but the greatest thing she said last night was that our Father has our hearts. we need to open it up to Him more than others. it was so good to hear that again.

something i shared with her is something that i have learned in the last couple of weeks/months. after talking about being on Commitment and not dating we both know that we aren't suppose to be one of those people. however, i know i'm not supposed to do that but my commitment while being single is this :"Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit" (1 Cor. 7:34). i want know what that feels like and what that looks like. this helps me to rely on the Lord. I can't wait to see what will happen as i pursue this desire. i strive for the purity that God's love gives us. i want to be pure for my Father, not saying i won't mess up b/c i already have and will continue to mess up but the mercy, the grace, and the love He gives takes it all away.

Thank You Lord.