my heart

so the last couple of days i have been listening to Jonathan David Helser. He is a musician who loves the Lord. the last couple of weeks i have been unsteady & restless in my walk with the Lord. i have become complacent once again & it has to stop. my heart still yearns for God & His presence but my actions do not show the same thing.

there is a song called "Likeness of Jesus" that JDH sings. it's a song that i love to hear because it is prayer of mine. i don't know all the lyrics so you will just have to go listen to it yourself.

recently, i went to visit my dad's side of the family. my grandmother is basically dying but i know that she is going home soon so i'm not too worried. i was very happy to see her before she goes. anyways, as i was visiting i realized that i just didn't fit in. i long for purity more than anything in this world with everything i do. it is hard to do at times but it is something i long for.
my sister & i went to church with my dad & the verse that struck my mind was in Matthew.

Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Matthew 5:8

it's been in my mind all week. also, having child like faith has been on my heart all week.

i think the Lord is trying to tell me something...

the question is if i will open my heart & ears to hear Him. i will. Will you?