May... so far

May 1-3: SYNC Retreat.
- It was wonderful. i got to hang out with some cool folks from my church. we had great bonding time in the van. met some cool people from West Virginia. hopefully we will stay connected!

May 9: GRADUATION!
- I graduated college with a Bachelors in Social Work. the school of social work took up a row and four seats. 20 students. love it! at least we can say that we will stay in touch and had a great time in college since we got to know everyone in our college.
-moved out of my apartment. that was a bummer... i now live back at home & it's a mess with all of my stuff!

May 10-14: BEACH!
-i just got back from the beach today! i'm so tan! it's wonderful. i relaxed and after a while i didn't know what to do since i'm not used to relaxing for more than maybe two hours. i love being busy so i stay busy. this was a good get away with friends.

pictures will come later after i get back from Houston for the weekend.

my sister's engagement photo:

Love Me

a poem from Deep Unto Deep by Dana Candler:

"Love Me"

But why? But how? How is it that He loves me?
How is it that the King, the Creator, the Beautiful and the Mighty
Has vowed to love and adore me? How can it be so?
And I so dirty... I so unlovely... I so dark.
And Him so pure... Him so Fair... Him so good... How is it so?
Jesus, I do not understand. Jesus, what have You done?
It is too much. It is too great a thing... for one so undeserving.
Yet even in this You delight. You love me in my weakness.
You love me in my helplessness.
You do not ask me to be strong.
You do not ask me to first be deserving.
For I shall never deserve such a love.
It is based not on my deserving. It is based not on my earnings.
All that I could ever do would never be enough.
It would never cause my heart to be found worthy.
And you delight in it to be this way.
You cause my attempts to be found empty and my strivings to end dry.
For never will You love me for them.
Your love for me is too rich and too great to be bought at so low a price.
It is a love I could never afford, nor am asked to pay a penny for.
It is mine. Freely it is mine. Given as a free gift.
What all the kings and princes of the world could not afford,
You have banded to my little heart.
What love is this, my Jesus, and why do You love me?
Oh, why have You cast Your riches and Your wealth
to such a souls as mine?
If I had the strength I would say,
"Please... for justice's sake... love another."
But I cannot say such words. A fool I would be to turn You away.
Love me then, oh Perfect King. Love the poor and dirty.
Love the one who cannot earn nor pay. Love the despised and rejected.
Love one who can bring You nothing except the tears of a lovesick heart.
Love me. For I cannot turn You away. I cannot deny such love
Love me then, my Jesus. As you have vowed love and adore little me...

starbursts

note to self:
do not eat a pack of starbursts within a two hour span and then drink a vanilla latte. i feel a little sick.

the women's oasis conference was this weekend at Metro. i think it went really well. women got baptized in the Holy Spirit last night and this morning. this morning's message was about asking what God to do in every situation. John 2:5 says "to do what ever Jesus tells you to do." Mary is telling her servants this... to obey Jesus... and water was turned into wine. this made me think. i pray all the time asking for help in certain situations but i forget to sit and listen to the answer that God wants to give me. it was a great reminder that i needed to hear. i believe that i could have dealt with situations so much better this last year at school than i did.

i went to a dance recital with caroline tonight. it was so good to hang out with her. i love her. we saw some good dances. found some new songs i liked. Sleeping Beauty was great. we now want to start a modern dance group at church... i would have to re-take a dance class to refresh myself. but having a dance group would be so much fun even if it's just the two of us.

"no one else can satisfy my heart like Jesus, no one else can satisfy heart." this was sung in the prayer room in KC. i would love to go up there for a month and just sit in the prayer room for the entire time. "You bring restoration, to my soul." love listening to it!

observations of the day:
1. PDA in B&N is not appropriate
2. there is a such thing of a pink overload
3. i have realized that i want to work out more- i'm enjoying it more.
4. i don't like to be exhausted.... i get mean.
5. i really want to tie-dye again (pics are to come of my awesome tie-dye shirt)

prayer room #4

"Hallelujah, Jesus saved me
Now I'm free.

You are my great reward"

i'm glad that i logged on and this is what i see/hear on the prayer room webstream. all of the young people are dancing! i love it. Jay Thomas is leading worship. he is so good and anointed.

skeleton bones

john mark mcmillan is seriously talented. i love his music. skeleton bones is in my head so i'm posting the lyrics from his blog. at the fresh fire conference and there was this guy selling shirts that have images representing passages from the bible. it's pretty awesome and the guy selling them was really cool. he had no idea that john mark mcmillan wrote "how he loves" because he has only heard jesus culture's version. they both have the best versions of that song. but here is skeleton bones...

enjoy the read:

Skeleton Bones

Peel back our ribs again
And stand inside of our chest
We just want to love you
We just want to love you yeah

Peel back the veil a time
Let us see you with our naked eyes
We just want to love you
We just want to love you yeah

Skeleton bones stand at the sound
Of eternity on
The lips of the found
Grave stones roll
to the rhythm of the sound of you
Skeleton bones stand at the sound
Of eternity on
The lips of the found
Yeah so separate those doors
Let the sun of resurrection in

Oh let us
Adore the son of glory
Dressed in love
Open up your gates
Before him
Crown him
Stand him up

We want your blood to flow inside our body and
We want your wind inside our lungs
We just want to love you
We just want to love you yeah
We want your blood to flow inside our body and
We want your wind inside our lungs
We just want to love you
We just want to love you yeah

Skeleton bones stand at the sound
Of eternity on
The lips of the found
Grave stones roll
To the rhythm of the sound of you
Skeleton bones stand at the sound
Of eternity on
The lips of the found
yeah so separate those doors
And let the sun of resurrection in

Oh let us
Adore the son of glory
Dressed in love
Open up your gates
Before him
Crown him
Stand him up

Everything that breaths
Everything that breaths
Everything that breaths

i got to see baby cooper tonight with heather. we cooked dinner and ate with amanda. we talked about weddings and engagement rings. it was fun even though i'm the one who does not have anyone "special" but i don't care. i had a great time with it.

After Dark was on Monday night. it was really good and something i really needed to hear. Joe White was the speaker and i have never heard anyone speak like he did. he talked to every college student like we were his child or grandchild. it was refreshing. i was reminded that my Daddy loves me and the way Joe spoke to us was all i needed to hear. NEEDTOBREATHE also came and played. they are really good. their songs are wonderful to listen to as well.

here are some pictures that i want to share with you:
the ring i want:it's a 1940's antique ring. it's pretty awesome and fairly cheap.

here is baby cooper:he's a little over 3 months now! he's gotten so big!

here is NEEDTOBREATHE:

prayer room #4

Raise up friends of the Bride groom
who know your heart
Raise up friends of the Bride groom
who hear your voice

the prophets are coming
the prophets arise
the prophets are coming
now is the time