ENGAGED

(this is the reenactment photo)

that's right! i'm ENGAGED!!!! it happened on Friday, Feb 24.
it all started with Sean coming into town this weekend mainly to see the broadway Wicked. however, he surprised me by coming into town on thursday night (after a long week of me nagging/begging him to come in that night). i was so excited and happy that i cried (only a couple of tears). haha i have become more emotional lately.
on friday, we had coffee with one of my close friends & we ran some errands after. we had an appointment with the event coordinator at Sloss Furnaces to discuss our wedding. (we already started to plan on our wedding before the engagement.) while we are meeting with her, Sean had a few of my friends come and hide for the proposal. we walk to the actual wedding site & Sean gets the coordinator to practice "walking down the aisle." while we are doing this he starts to record all of this on his phone. she then walks me to the stage. Sean and i go to the middle of the stage and then coordinator tells us after we "exchange our vows" that we can say anything we want to at that time. So Sean starts talking after i tell him not to & then he pulls out the ring, gets on his knee & proposes. i was so shocked! after that 3 of my friends, mom, and aunt come out from hiding screaming. they scared me! the whole moment was wonderful! i could not ask for a better proposal. they came down to congratulate us and we celebrated with some champagne. it was so good.

there is a video of the whole proposal but it is on facebook. if you are my friend go check it out! you will be full of laughter when you finish watching it... due to my reactions.

i seriously cannot wait to marry the man of my dreams and that the Lord has blessed me to be his wife. The Lord has already been working in ways with the wedding and we could not have asked for anything better. He is so good!!

v-day

so this year was my first year to have a valentine! sadly we were unable to be together since we are long distance BUT i still loved it. Sean had flowers delivered to me at work! it was so nice to receive them there. it made all the other girls slightly jealous. so i think Sean succeeded. here are some pictures that i took. Enjoy!

did i mention that he got me my favorite flower? red gerber daisies :D

a psalm

Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
Psalm 34:5

this verse is so wonderful. it speaks truth too! have you ever met someone who is absolutely in love with Jesus? if you aren't sure, then you may not have yet. it is very evident when someone is in love with Jesus. you see it in their eyes & they are consistently full of joy. i love meeting people who are in love with Jesus. for one reason is because it challenges me to go deeper and it is encouraging. when I'm in mundane state (which has happened before) i long to be with friends who love Jesus. i feel at home. the weight of the world has been on me for a while and a couple of weeks ago i got visit with a dear friend who just encouraged me the whole. it is funny because we are actually in a similar season, but she has been able to really get away and spend time with the Lord. unlike me, i have been so busy that i feel like i can't get anytime with God. but i have made the effort once again to get at least a few minutes to read a couple of verses. it's amazing how your whole perspective can change in a just a few times.

my goal is be radiant in God's presence. I want to be bold & no longer fear. it is a work in progress but i know that the Lord will move in my life as i grow in Him. so i encourage you to be gaze upon the Lord. gaze at His eyes. Meditate on His word. Use the word in your life & see how it can help you. sit in His presence and accept His love. as i write this post, i can feel His love all around me. it's a wonderful feeling.

be blessed today!

a cry

my life has taken some sudden changes. this post is about a recent situation. my pastor resigned due to some unfortunate circumstances that cannot be said. i am truly heartbroken by this sudden change & all i can do it pray & cry out to a sovereign God:

Lord, I thank You for what You are doing. I know we don't understand the full reasoning be the situation at hand but I know you are in control. Lord, I for mercy & grace upon Your children of Metro Church. I ask that you will strip us raw so that we will be made into a new creation, a new bride. I ask that you shed light onto any darkness that is in our hearts. Make us NEW!!! Make us one with You. I long to know Your heart, I long to see your eyes of fire. God, I ask for justice for those who have wronged you. i ask for a new heart for Metro. I ask that a spirit of repentance to be release among the people. You desire unity & I long for it. Change our hearts. I pray that we return to our first love, You. Remove the pride that hinders your lovely presence. Melt our hearts. I thank you for hearing my cry. I know these words will not return void. You are King of Kings & my Savior, Jesus. There is none like you, there is no greater love than Yours. Teach us to accept your love as a gift that you give daily. Thank you Lord. Amen

this cry is from a daughter who doesn't understand the present but I know & have faith that my God will provide for every need that my church has. I know in His timing something good will come. i believe.

I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
Psalm 34:4